analysis of Wilfdflower Wildfire: Lana's broken relationship with her mother.

this song is about Lana’s tough childhood and her struggles with her family, especially her mother.

but before we start we need to understand the meaning of Wildflower Wildfire?

it’s a term that’s been used after the Californian fires in 2016, after all the wildfires, came wildflowers: Lana is so interested in the fires in California, she wrote about them more than once in both her songs and poetry.. 

anyways, Lana this time uses the term to describe her relationship with her mother instead

Lana is the wildflower, her mother is the wildfire

let’s break down the lyrics now:

« Here's the deal

’Cause I know you wanna talk about it

Here's the deal

I promise you, like, a million tomorrows

Here's the deal

What I can promise is I’ll lie down

Like a bed of wildflowers

And I'll always make the sheets

Smell like gardenias wild at your feet

And I nourish you hazily »

« Here's the deal

’Cause I know you wanna talk about it

Here's the deal

You say there's gaps to fill in, so here

Here's the deal

My father never stepped in when his wife would rage at me

So I ended up awkward but sweet

Later then hospitals, stand still on my feet

Comfortably numb, but with lithium came poetry »

here Lana describes her toxic relationship with her her mother since a very young age, her mother was very abusive, and even her father never stepped in to stop this abuse, a rough childhood that resulted in a very mentally destroyed Lana, Comfortably Numb and Lithium are song by Pink Floyd and Nirvana, both songs are about using drugs to help forget childhood trauma. as Lana tried getting into mental facility and hospitals but the effort never paid off unfortunately.

Lana indicates that even though she is mentally destroyed, she ended up sweet and for that, she will never treat the people the she loves the way she was treated, she’ll be like a wildflower, she’ll nourish those people hazily, she’ll give them the love she never had.

« Baby, I, I, I, I've been runnin' on stardust

Alone for so long

I wouldn't know what hot fire was

Hot fire, hot weather, hot coffee
I'm better with you

It's strange, but it's true, darling »

« And baby, I, I’ve been running on star drip

IV's for so long

I wouldn't know how cruel the world was

Hot fire, hot weather, hot coffee, I'm better

So I turn, but I learn (It from you, babe) »

stardust is a nickname for cocaine

star drip IV could symbolize fame

hot fire is passion and love

hot weather is for summer, and summer itself symbolizes joy, growth, fullness and warmth

coffee itself symbolizes emotions, change in feelings, transformation of moods, social life, friends, reuniting with friends and high spirits to achieve something in life. Lana wants her coffee hot, warm not cold 

Lana was relying on medicaments and pain numbers, and fame for so long to forget her traumatic childhood that she never knew what is like to have a warm life, so she will from now and on rely on passion, love and friends to numb those feelings she has inside

« Not to turn into a wildfire

To light up your night

With only my smile and nothing that hurts

Baby, I run like a wildflower

I live on sheer willpower

I promise that nothing will burn you

Nothing will burn, burn, burn

Like the others, baby, burns, burns, burns

Burn, burn, burn (Like the others, baby)

Like the others, baby, burns, burns, burns »

Lana once again confirms that she will never turn into a wildfire, and she doesn’t need something that burns to light up her loved ones night, she will use her smile only. like a phoenix, from the ashes of her mother’s fire, this sweet version of Lana was born

let’s take a look at what Lana posted on mother’s day in 2020

Lana explains that she is the way she is now because of the women she met along the way, who loved her unconditionally, as well as the ones who put conditions on their love and were streely in their nature (her mother)

she says that she’s grateful for both of them, because she is wiser now, she learned from both 

« It's you from whom I learn, learn, learn

It's you from whom I learn, learn, learn »

the outro of the song is a message to her mother, she tells her that she learned from her to not become like her.